Here I am, 38 weeks finally and just really wishing coco would come out and play.... I've had irregular contractions and period pain for a few days but nothing that looks anything close to real labour. I'm sure she'll just be a cheeky monkey and stay put until the csection now.
But then I remembered all the things i've been pushing to the back of my mind lately. I'm probably really stupid to want her out, she's so much safer in there. At least while she's locked up safe and sound she doesnt have to struggle to feed or to breathe or any of the other things. And I think i've kind of forgot the part where she's likely to be in special care for so long.
I have no idea what i'm doing here. I know i'll figure it all out like I did with soph, but still. Very scared!
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