This is a joke. It has to be doesn't it? I mean I don't deserve to go through this all again so it has to be some sort of trick fate is playing on me.
I was getting desert prepped and I had to pee... When I saw all the blood I completely freaked out. Bright read and easily as heavy as a period. So I called drew at work and I was so rude to poor Ruth when she answered the phone - I'll have to apologise to her. And little Soph was sitting on the floor looking so worried saying "you OK" over and over. It was horrible.
At the hospital they put us straight through but then we waited 2 hours for a scan. Longest 2 hours of my life. Finally it was time to go through and I could barely walk my bladder was that full.
When she said there was a heartbeat I couldn't breathe. I was so convinced it was over already. Heartbeat was 174bpm which I think is a little bit high? But its the size that's the real puzzle. Bub has grown, an extra 3 days worth of growth actually. So that's puts my dd at 14/01 instead of 17/01. I was feeling a lot lighter then.
But of course its never good news is it. Apparently there is a problem with the yolk sac. Its not round like its supposed to be but jagged and they cant guarantee that its going to be OK. I've been sent home to wait and see. I am so so so sick of hearing those words I tell you.
What I don't get though is that they didn't do any tests. THey didn't check my blood or check for infection or dehydration or anything like that. It's like as soon as they saw the jagged sac that was enough for them and it doesn't make sense to me.
I'm going to call Dr. Jensen in the morning. Hopefully he can fit me in and give me some more information so I know what we're dealing with. In the mean time I'm just one big mess. All I bloody want is to have another baby, why should that have to be so darn hard?
I was getting desert prepped and I had to pee... When I saw all the blood I completely freaked out. Bright read and easily as heavy as a period. So I called drew at work and I was so rude to poor Ruth when she answered the phone - I'll have to apologise to her. And little Soph was sitting on the floor looking so worried saying "you OK" over and over. It was horrible.
At the hospital they put us straight through but then we waited 2 hours for a scan. Longest 2 hours of my life. Finally it was time to go through and I could barely walk my bladder was that full.
When she said there was a heartbeat I couldn't breathe. I was so convinced it was over already. Heartbeat was 174bpm which I think is a little bit high? But its the size that's the real puzzle. Bub has grown, an extra 3 days worth of growth actually. So that's puts my dd at 14/01 instead of 17/01. I was feeling a lot lighter then.
But of course its never good news is it. Apparently there is a problem with the yolk sac. Its not round like its supposed to be but jagged and they cant guarantee that its going to be OK. I've been sent home to wait and see. I am so so so sick of hearing those words I tell you.
What I don't get though is that they didn't do any tests. THey didn't check my blood or check for infection or dehydration or anything like that. It's like as soon as they saw the jagged sac that was enough for them and it doesn't make sense to me.
I'm going to call Dr. Jensen in the morning. Hopefully he can fit me in and give me some more information so I know what we're dealing with. In the mean time I'm just one big mess. All I bloody want is to have another baby, why should that have to be so darn hard?
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